Knowing that it is suicidal he was walking in to that. Knowing this is going to be the end of one waste but peaceful and serene life he was walking in to that.
It was very easy. Just have to think that whatever may be the case the inevitable will happen. The anticipated said moment have been extended above any wild imaginations. People always define him as 'incomplete'. He used to be defined as a loser just because of the last missing end, the end he could have easily filled, but he did not do that may be because he was overconfident, may be because he was too optimistic, may be because god might have thought, the success may leave him blind. Whatever it was, he used to get out of the game at just one or two run away the century.
But he was such a happy-go-lucky guy. He used to get frustrated thinking that he never took one thing in life seriously, that he could have taken it seriously at least just once... just once.. If he was able to see life seriously once and made a swot analysis, he would not have been standing alone in the path with full of nightmares and the saddest part, only nightmares. There was no light in front of him. Regardless of how hard he tried, there was not even a pinch of anticipation, this was almost impossible to invite any happy thought in his cloudy mind (oh go!! how he could have conjured a patronus spell :P) . He looked behind and with full confidence he was able to say, whatever he is now is because of his thoughtless decision. There was nobody to be blamed. There was no game untried or else he was too afraid to try the unseen game.
He happened to had a gimps of the old moments that somebody had captured in frame long back in those golden moments and just seeing that he couldn't prevent one cry that just died inside him, just on time or else the spectators would have laughed at him thinking, ultimately the iron man had melted. Of course he cannot let people think that he had melted because just for that ego only he had worked too hard.
This is a bizarre moment for him, just one more step and he will be falling ... he will be a free soul in moments.. he was anticipating.. but life cannot be that easy, can it be????
No of course not. If it was that easy, the whole world would have been full of corpses.. the population would not have been exploding like this. Well. .. he was trying to commit suicide in simple terms. He was not a coward, so decided better of it. Ultimately if he could just end it all in one simple moment what is the big deal!!!??? Any body can do it, any sick moron who think that the whole world is torturing him and he is one poor target, can easily blame others by simply cutting the crap. Big deal is whether we decide to go ahead or not. Big deal is how we enrich each moment as we could.
You know they say time flies. They couldn’t have been more correct! One moment he was standing at the peak of the bekal fort ready to fall.. next moment he was sitting in an a/c cabinet writing codes ,even he does not know. With an evil grin , he thought 'miles to go before I sleep'. Well he is a star. :)
